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It's that time of the year again where we wave goodbye to the last 365 days and welcome the start of a new chapter.
It is fair to say that 2017 has been the hardest year of my life. I have been through things I never imagined and felt lows I didn't even know existed. It literally took over my life from January and I haven't been able to get off the journey since. There were days where I didn't want to leave my bed, see anyone, eat, sleep and most of the year I felt literally no emotion. Being at war with your own head is the hardest battle you have to face. If the low moods weren't enough then throw anxiety in the mix and imagine having to avoid so many situations because you just can't face it. I felt guilty for missing out on things, not seeing people and imagined everyone hating me for not being able to turn up. This whole rollercoaster of a year took a massive toll on my university and I was so close to leaving so many times but my parents were always so supportive and told me I could do it and not to make any drastic decisions when I felt that low. So, I did the next best thing and got the support my university had to offer. I got extensions on literally everything but I completed my second year. This year has consisted of endless trips to the doctors to get the right medication, seeing mental health advisors and attending regular IAPT meetings. BUT I am so happy to say that I am finishing 2017 and have started my third year in a much better place. 

This year may have been unbelievably shitty but there have been some highlights in there too. The biggest one has to be getting my puppy, who is still as cute as ever! I have made memories with old and new friends and surprisingly I have laughed and enjoyed myself fully. I have also made the best group of friends in the form of the Blogger Babes. These girls I haven't even met in person but we talk everyday and they have genuinely been such a massive part of my 2017 I couldn't not mention them. 
I also, extremely recently, took my best friend to Edinburgh for her birthday. We got to witness the Christmas Market and it was the most magical thing in the world. I genuinely believe I have fell in love with the place and want to visit and return every Christmas.
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I genuinely believe this year has shown me who my friends are and I am eternally thankful for them. My family have been the best support system ever and have had to see me go through my lowest to being able to see me at my current highs. I unconditionally love all of you that have been there with my through this journey and I will one day repay all of you for your love and support. 
We are walking into this new chapter together and it is going to be a better one for all of us. 
Here's to making more memories and sharing laughter together. 

Much love 

x
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  1. I hope 2018 is better than 2017 for you - Happy New Year x

    Alice // The Rose Glow

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    1. Bless you! Thank you so much, I hope it is amazing for you too! x

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  2. I hope 2018 is a year of rewards...because you passed with flying colors 2017 tests
    Indeed friends are those who remain despite of the adversity!
    To a great 2018

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    1. thank you so much lovely! I hope 2018 is filled with love and laughter for you x

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  3. Sending you so much love girl! The Blogger Babes are all here for you :) I really hope this year has some lovely surprises in store for you <3
    Alice Xx
    www.blacktulipbeauty.co.uk

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    1. you girls are literally the best ever! love you all so much! xx

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