WHERE THE HELL HAVE I BEEN?!

First and foremost I am sorry I have been MIA on my blog for the past month or longer! In all honesty life just got a little bit much. Trying to juggle being back at University and the coursework, a job, friends, family and my own personal mental wellbeing was proving near on impossible. I'm not saying I am anywhere near where I should be currently but I have managed to find a spare few minutes to write this because I have felt so so guilty for neglecting my blog and everything that comes with it. You check my instagram and twitter and there have been no updates or anything even slightly blog related, everything has gone back to being personal and in all honesty not that much of a positive place to be and for that I am sorry. If you do follow me on social media then you will know that I have ventured on some nights out recently which I have not done in a while but I wanted to try and get back into the life that I feel like any other 21 year old lives. At times I do feel as though I need to spend time with my friends because that is what every other human out there does and I don't want to feel as though my mental health restricts that but some times it does have an impact. I can be around friends and be happy then out of nowhere feel as though I am going to have a breakdown and will then sit there and cry and want to be alone. I have accepted this is my life for now but I am not going to let all of this beat me, I am still going to spend time with people I love and care about but sometimes this does mean I need to put writing a blog post to the bottom of my to-do list because I can't lead that go go go lifestyle every day of being busy 24/7 and for that I am sorry. I know a lot of people say we shouldn't apologise but I do feel like I owe you all an apology because if you follow me purely for my blog then there has been nothing out there for you but probably me moaning. I try and keep my blog a positive place but I want it to be real and I feel like this is the most real and honest I can be because this post has not been drafted and edited it is pure, honest and straight from my heart and the reality that is my life. 
I'm not going to promise and say there is going to be a fixed schedule, not that I have ever had that but I am going to try and get back to posting because I do miss it. I miss the freedom that writing gives me and I feel like I need that but just at my own pace.
I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense but it is what is whirling around my head right now.
I hope this is okay with you all and once again I am sorry. 

Much love 


3 comments

  1. Oh girl, you take all the time you need! Blogging can take a backseat for now and we’ll all be waiting for your return. You shouldn’t be putting an extra pressure on yourself for not keeping up social media appearances, your mental health is way more important! Take all the time you need and, like I said, we’ll all be waiting for your return ❤️

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  2. Take your time lovely lady, focus on yourself and come back when you feel you can! Maybe start afresh in the new year and make a little set of goals that you feel you can manage? Then just take things step by step. Sending you lots of love!
    Alice Xx

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  3. We will always miss the content you post because it's fab and you're great at what you do! But it's way more important to just take the time you need, blogging will always be here when you feel up to it x

    Alice www.accordingtoalicex.com

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