Lets Chat - University.

I have had so many different post ideas going round my head but in all honesty nothing felt right or fitting for how I have been feeling recently and what's been going on in my life. This is the reason for a delay in posts recently because I have just had no clue what to write to kind of explain any of it. Firstly, no this post is not going to delve into all my emotions and feelings but just enlighten you on one area of my life that has had an impact recently and that is University. Now I can only imagine the amount of you reading this thinking that it is hard for everyone? Yes that is true but for me it was exceptionally difficult for me throughout second year. I mean the workload itself is enough for anyone so why throw more things in there? Sometimes we don't have a choice, life just happens and I struggled with this concept of life is happening but I have no control over it. I just had to cope and in all honesty that seemed impossible.

Ever been in a room and felt as if you were there in body but your mind just isn't? Well that was me in every lecture. I dragged myself there so I knew my body or outer shell was there but my insides most definitely weren't. I couldn't tell you where my head was but it most definitely was not where it was supposed to be. This made my course extremely difficult. How was I supposed to learn and remember anything if my head wasn't even there, I could not concentrate long enough to remember a sentence let alone a whole lecture. The only way I even tried to deal with it was forcing myself to make sure I was always there, at every single lecture no matter how difficult it was. Just being there in the room was a achievement in itself and I like to think that just by being there I was remembering more than I imagined. Honestly, I think this worked. I managed to pass my exam better than I ever thought and this was by forcing myself to always be there no matter what. 

Second year is hard, you automatically put more pressure on yourself because during first year everyone is just like 'first year doesn't count'. The second you hit second year it gets a bit more serious and automatically we put a thousand times more pressure on ourselves. This can be both a good and bad thing because yeah it makes us work harder but then it can also destroy us a little because of the high standards we set ourselves. 

What you do need to remember in this environment is yes it is stressful and it is difficult but you put yourself into this situation for a reason. You have dreams and ambitions and you are trying to achieve them and that is an incredible thing. Don't be lead by friends, don't listen to anyone other than yourself. On the other hand, if you do start this University adventure and realise further down the line that it isn't for you and you can't handle it then never ever ever be afraid of change. Change can be the most incredible thing and only you know what is best for you. No one else is in your exact position, just you. Therefore, you follow your head and your heart and do what you think is best for you. 

'Create your own reality'

Much love 

x

11 comments

  1. I am currently looking into universities, and this was really helpful for me! Thank you love, Casey x
    http://casestreetx.blogspot.co.uk

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  3. This is a lovely post Abbie, and I'm always here if you need to talk! You're so brave being so honest in this post, and it was so well written.
    Proud of you girly 💛

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  4. I've been in a similar situation to this and all I can say is well done you for sticking to it. Always here!

    Shauna
    https://diariesofadramatic.com

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  5. I'm starting uni this September after having a gap year so this is really helpful for me! This is such a brave post for you to write, here if you ever need me lovely x

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  6. I can totally imagine the stress of second year Uni. I never experienced Uni myself but adulting is hard work sometimes isn't it? :) Give yourself a break, look after yourself :)

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  7. This is such an inspirational post for those who end up feeling similar to you! I hope you're okay, student's do not get enough credit for how difficult university can be.

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  8. I can totally relate to this! Especially going and then afterwards wondering if you really was there because you don't remember anything. I hope you're feeling a little better now!

    Ellie x

    www.elliesbitsofbeauty.wordpress.com

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  9. Such a brave post! Very helpful for others who feel a similar way x

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  10. Loved this post so much! I just finished second year myself and struggled so so much! I wrote a little post about it too! I hope you're okay now, if you ever wanna talk about it I'm more than happy to chat! Love that last line that no one is in the exact position we are in xxx

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  11. I struggle with university and it is hard so I am also here to talk if you need it! xx

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